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me fucking repulses me to the point of vomit
seeing my reflection makes me feel vile
having a pulse makes me wish i could stop it
and being perceived makes my throat fill with fucking bile
i just want you to know i don’t wanna see me either
a blemish, a mess, just taking up space
I will soon be nothing but a smoldering ember
so aware of the fact that i will never have a place
and that every place is better without me plaguing the vibe of the rest of its patrons
me fucking repulses me to the point of vomit
seeing my reflection makes me feel vile
having a pulse makes me wish i could stop it
and being perceived makes my throat fill with fucking bile because I do not belong
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platitude and plongitude
01:22
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congratulations!
you did it!
a kiss as sweet as cyanide
with a sawtoothed grin
if i sharpen my teeth, shape and grind
will biting my tongue be all the more pointed
drill the flesh with bone
taste the iron and feel soothed
amidst the risk of diatribe
proclamation:
sin!
a religious tongue lashing
just for my existence
from whom is holy simply for the fashion
imagine that being passed off as purpose
amidst the risk of dissolution
prolongation:
when will you give it up?
when will you get a grip?
why am i the one who
bears the brunt of your
inability to
understand anything about people who aren’t yourself
you narrow-visioned prick?
why are you projecting
your insecurities
on me?
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ham-ham core
01:08
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all is wrath
all is being wrought
death is many people
all often fruitless
all overbearing
just looking for the next trend
to change their profile picture to
(let’s get the sheet from the bed to cover our subject)
grief is transaction
every interaction
is just taxation
and i’m going into debt
we are always fighting
and never at ease
we are mentally destroyed
for being ourselves
i am consistently met with new challenges every day and various additions to my enclosure i did not fucking want
if my environment could calm the fuck down i would be doing a lot better
fuck
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let’s learn how to disappear and never be found:
be trans
or
be of color
be gay
or
be a woman
be weird
or
be unstable
be a kid
or
be autistic
be a person
with any object and you are subject to the ending of your life simply for being in the wrong place at the wrong time
i would like to be simple, sweet, and smiling, but instead i am sharp, scary, and sick in the eyes of society
i am a degenerate terror being drawn in to the rewriting of history
i am a monster for what i am seen as
no one is safe in this day and age
and we have all been judged by the primordial ooze
we would probably be better off dead but that’s our choice to make
but when it’s made against your will, they won’t even fucking look for you
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security theatre
01:38
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every good person is just one bad thing away from snapping
and every healthy one is just a scare away from inescapable debt
no one allowed in and no one allowed to leave
just a nation turned into a massive walled city
pointing the finger, shrugging off the blame
but the reflection is the reason it all went this way
all the officials that don’t love us, we sing to you
and all the bigots that menace us, we sing to you
existence is just a game of politics
what is a country but a fucking life sentence?
but today i must be grateful for what the lord hath given me
a severe mental disorder and a population where a large portion would like to kill me
no rights to not be born but, after, a complete denial of life, love, and liberty
just consider the mass shootings, the queer bashings, and genocides all late term abortions
that way the victory we receive is just fucking enormous
take everyone out before yourself
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6. |
full
06:34
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always louder forever Providence, Rhode Island
a repository for the many projects i (alice jackson) do that dont have an existence outside of me making
them.
attention currency-acoustic mathies
girl_that__is___tired- sample based electronics
clown school- noisy math rock
h311a- max fux bloops
MGD- noisy shoegaze
eternaleyebags-some beats
dustcollector-ambient
... more
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